Chambersburg, PA

My First True Love

love with words

Today I have been a mama for twenty years. Twenty beautiful and sweet years.

At this point in my adult life there is nothing that I have done longer than be a mama.

It has been my favorite job. It has educated me more than all my schooling combined. And it is what first taught me how to love.

She was my first true love, how appropriate that she was born just days before Valentine’s Day. When I first held her in my arms I was forever changed. It was like a chamber within my heart opened up and I was able to love in a capacity that I had never known before.

On this day I was no longer just Diane . . . I was Mommy!

It’s a day that marks one of the greatest joys in my life for the word says,

“Behold, children are a gift of the LORD, The fruit of the womb is a reward.” Psalm 127:3

Truly a great gift is she! Far greater than I ever deserved!

Even back then I wondered why I would have been given such a great gift. I was not worthy of such a priceless treasure and yet the Lord gave her to me anyway. And although I did not know Him at that time, it was my love for her that drew me to Him.

She made me want to be better than I was. She made me want to be the best I could be . . . because she deserved better than I was. It was my great love for her that led me to the first true lover of my soul.

All these years later it still amazes me how the Lord uses all things for the good. How His ways are so much higher than our ways, and how He knows just what we need to make us take a turn towards Him.

He knew I needed her. He knew my love for her would save me from myself. And He was right!

How powerful love is! 1 Corinthians 13:8 says, “Love never fails!” There is nothing that is stronger than love, nothing that can overcome it, and nothing can stop it from fulfilling its purpose.

For some love is a mixed bag of pain and regret. Valentine’s day is just another reminder to them of hurts from the past or perceived emptiness in the present. And I would be lying if I said that love doesn’t hurt sometimes . . . because sometimes it does.

It hurts because when we love we are vulnerable, we are open to receive. It hurts when it is broken, and taken away. It hurts when it’s not returned and when it is rejected. And if you are like me you have felt all these many ways that love can hurt, but know this too . . . you are not alone . . . Jesus felt all these hurts and more.

He left the security of Heaven to make himself a vulnerable human. To offer himself as a sacrifice to the very people who were sacrificing Him. To accept into His kingdom those that had rejected Him, and to pay the price for all.

Yes He too knows just how much love hurts . . . but He also knows how powerful it is . . . it has the unique ability to set you free!

As Valentine’s Day approaches and as I celebrate 20 years of loving one very special girl, I am so thankful that I chose to not allow pain and regret to keep me from embracing the power of God’s love.

How about you? Which are you focussing in on today? Love or pain? I pray you choose the more powerful of the two, and fall deeper in love with the first true lover of your soul!


diane square Diane Swan is a Professional Christian Counselor, Speaker and Blogger who is passionate about using her God given gifts to assist ladies in living victorious lives in Christ. She enjoys sharing true life messages that relate to the complex lives of every day women and leaves them feeling equipped to be more than conquerors in all their battles. Diane and her husband Todd are the founders of Seven Swans Ministries, an organization devoted to living out the gifts of the Spirit by offering a unique array of services to encourage, edify and expand God’s kingdom. Connect with Diane anytime: Facebook Pinterest – Twitter – Website

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